AHHH! I just painted for the first time ever last night! & I did two coats - it's one wall in my living room, a darkish orange... & it's UNEVEN! =(

LoL, I don't think I can touch it up enough to look nice, so I'll probably just buy a shade darker than what I used - since I don't have enough left to do a third coat. Grrrr... LoL. Oh well, it was my first time. I guess I was just crossing my fingers for beginner's luck.

Aside from that, the new apartment is going pretty well. I just have to get used to being by myself most of the time, as opposed to people being around 24/7.

Allright, time to go home & give Hulkie some wet food. He's actually adjusting pretty well, too. =)

Everybody enjoy a beautiful day!

xoxo's: Fides Anna =)

PS: Nollan, I won't be using any this weekend - you could have mine til Monday? =D See you tonight!

I HAVE A NEW HOME! I found a  1 bedroom apartment & got approved within the hour!Woohoo! I can move in tomorrow, but I'm just going to start painting my walls....

I'M SO EXCITED! I love it!

Thank you everyone for your support, once again! I've been so happy these past few days!

House-warming at the end of the month! WOOHOO!

=D

Thank you so much, everyone, for all your support - on/offline. I really, really appreciate it all, & you guys are truly helping me go through this transition as gracefully as I can. *EXHALE*

I am letting him go, I'm going to stay true & be honest w/ myself, be strong & be positive.

I am learning so much from this experience! I am rediscovering the true meaning of love & w/ that have a renewed, deeper understanding of forgiveness & compassion.

I feel strangely free. I have been going through such a rollercoaster of realizations these past few days - the most intense pain & confusion, to truth & peace, yet I'm striving to keep my heart open.

I still have a lot to learn. I know that moving out & moving on will help me grow into a better person. I hope he grows as well... but I think I actually do need a lot more space between us than I thought. It's allright that I thought otherwise - I'm going to go w/ the flow & figure out what feels right & what's best for me. I feel that I can truly follow my heart, now.

Thanks again, you guys.

It's great to be alive - let's all challenge ourselves to have a beautiful week.

Peace.

Okay, once again big change... Let's see if I have the balls to carry it through this time.

I need to do this for myself - I deserve to be happy, to feel secure & to have dreams & follow them. I am an individual! I don't need unnecessary drama in my life. I'm not trying to be just another "stupid girl"!

I really need help, please!

I know I'm doing what I should be doing... Mentally, spiritually, I'm ready. Even though I'm scared, my heart is in this. But I'm just a little bit scared. I'm about to step out of my comfort zone... Please help me!

God bless you all!

If I could make one wish... I'd wish everyone happiness.

I am so BORED! Maybe it's b/c I've let my life become boring the past few years - the bi-product of being wife material. Yuck. For the billionth time, I need a life. I know I've been saying that, but we need some real action here. Gosh, I wish Qween B was happening sooner - I need a week or two in San Diego w/ my favorite peoples... (Candy, you're not the only one who's discovered how WONDERFUL that those people & that place is! =D) *Sigh*

Man, I don't know if this is the accumulation of the past few years' locked-downness, or if it's because I miss being on vacation in Hawaii, or just spring in general - but once again, I NEED A CHANGE, goshdangit!!!!

Please, somebody just take me away from this place!

I want to stay in LA for at least a week during Summit. Maybe FSS, too. Ooh, maybe stay a few extra for Spinfactor, too!

*Sigh*

Take me away now...